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The periodic rant


WARNING: Long Random Post!

I am not sure where to begin. I am not sure if I will make any sense but I know I needed to write here. It’s been a really long time. And, I swear. I didn’t want to come back with a rant post. But here I am!

Life has changed the past few months. It’s been a roller coaster ride. I had mentioned I changed jobs in my previous post. Before I talk about other things, let me give you all some fun facts about the new job.

  • I am a project manager now. Its my dream job. This is the good news.
  • Everybody seems very nice around here. The new boss is super awesome.
  • I love project management and I think I know enough about it now. Thanks to all the past years of experience.
  • I am a Lean practitioner. Got the certificate recently. Yay!
  • There are days when I do not have to interact with a lot of people. And then there are some days when I need to really hunt people for answers.
  • And finally, the commute is okay. Just! Okay! This is the bad news.

So now that you all know the fun facts let’s go to the bad part. Okay? Okay!

  • I leave early in the morning and come back home late in the evening.
  • Every single day I struggle to get out of bed.
  • I snooze my alarm at least 4 times before I wake up. 
  • Some days I leave before baby lily wakes up.
  • Some other days, I don’t get to say bye to Lime. Yes! It’s a big deal for me.
  • And many days I don’t get to talk to Lemon in the mornings. 
  • Its always a mad rush.
  • Come evenings, I get damn tired.
  • I pick up Lime first and then we both go to Lily’s day care. Finally, we all reach home around 6:30 PM. Yes! 6:30 is late for someone-like- me who leaves the home at 7 AM in the morning.

That second when I open the garage door baby Lily cries. She cries and cries until I feed her something. Some days Lime sleeps off in the car on the way back home. He gets super cranky when I wake him up. Which adds more chaos to our evening.

I would shout. Lime would cry. Lily would cry even louder. Finally, we would all call Lemon and shout together on phone.


It has been that C-R-A-Z-Y. EVERY. SINGLE. DAY.


When it comes to cooking, I have always liked cooking fresh food for the family. I never liked the idea of cooking over the weekends for the weekdays. I must also say that I had the luxury and the time to cook every morning in my previous job. Life has changed now and I have changed too. So, what do I do these days? I cook lunch for 3 days on Sunday mornings. Sigh! What we do for dinner everyday and the rest of the 2 days in the week is a long story.

I really hate what I am doing. But I got no choice.


For a very long time now, my mom has not been well. She has diabetics and related nerve problems. The many doctors she has seen so far have not found a *real* cause. The past few months she has been very lethargic and forgetting things all of a sudden. She has been admitted in the hospital 3 times. None of the doctors in the US of A and in India are giving us answers.

Until I know what’s going on, I repeat to myself – She will be okay soon. She will be okay soon. She will not have a recurrence. There will be no complications. Relax. Take a deep breath. Repeat.


Lily has grown so much. She can now say few words. She says ‘Anna‘, ‘Thatha‘, ‘Amma‘ and ‘Appa‘. She even says ‘No‘ when Lime hugs her tight. She says ‘No! Mine!’ when Lime takes her toys. And, she loves her brother more than me!

Stay tuned for more about Lily and Lime.

Let me end this rant post with some pics. Thanks for reading. 


Lemon and Lily at the Boston Commons!





It’s 11 AM and I still can’t crack a smile!


It’s 11 AM on Monday and I’m still having the morning blues.

Monday morning blues are nothing new to me. More often I’m stressed out Monday mornings because of lack of sleep. So my initial plan was to go to bed early on Sunday. But it turned out to be just a wish. Lime refused to sleep on time and I ended being awake till 2 AM. 

Another plan was to watch less television over the weekend. But since Lemon is inseparable from the black box during weekends, I ended up sitting next to him and stayed addicted too. 

I also wished to keep everything ready for the week. Or at least for Monday. But I was too lazy and ended up doing my usual way ( hurrying up in the morning ) 

At least I thought I would have my favorite breakfast in the morning to make me feel better. But I forgot my breakfast at home and ended up having nothing. Sigh!

Somewhere I read Mondays are the perfect days to correct last week’s mistakes. May be true, right?

Now, just to make me feel better, I’m going to skip work for like 15 min and browse – to relax! May be this email from New York and Company will cheer me up a bit 😉 



Wordless Wednesday 17



I. Regret.

Something terrible happened. And because of that my last few weeks has been so awful. I’m totally frustrated. 

My mind just wishes that that something shouldn’t have happened in the first place. It is hard to undo that mistake now. 

I have done something that I totally regret and I am also mighty offended by the same thing!. And that something has made the past few weeks so dreadful. I wish I could go back in time and change everything to normal.  Certain circumstances forced me to do what I had done. Sigh!

The good part is that this experience has made me learn a lot. I understand what went wrong and I’m willing to correct my mistake. I did not want this to be in my blog but here I’m today writing this post. Although I’m not going to be reading this post ever again, I want it to be here just as a reminder of my life’s events. 

Catching a late night train? No Thank you!

This happened a long time ago. In 2009.

My mom and I had to go for my cousins wedding in Trichy. Mom had asked me to book our tickets. So, there I was browsing through and for the best possible deals. All looked great except for getting us the return ticket. For the date I needed to be back, only two tickets were available on a late night train. Since both of us had to go to office the next day, I had no other choice but to book that late night train. The train was at 00.30 AM. I got the AC Coach. I booked it. I took the printouts and was all set.

The Wedding was so much fun. I had a very good time with my cousins. The food was delicious and the weather was perfect. And then, it was time for us to leave. We said our good bye and arrived at the train station. 

One of our other relatives also had to catch a train at 11 PM and they came along with us to the station. As soon as they left, the station seemed very deserted to me. It looked to me as if we were alone. At 00:00 hrs, mom asked me to take the tickets from the suitcase and keep it ready. I took it out and looked at the train number, date and coach details. Only to realize that my train was for the previous day.

It was a mistake. A very big mistake. It hit me hard and I realized that I had booked our train tickets for the wrong date. I always thought I was booking a night train at 12: 30 for the 12th November. I did not realize the date changes at 12’o clk at night!! I had mistakenly booked an early morning train on the 12th Nov when I was supposed to book the tickets for the 12th night!! Or I should have at least selected 13th as the date when booking the train ticket. Sigh! 

My mom took it easy and did not get tensed. She asked me to relax. Knowing that we were waiting for a train that already left a day before was scary that too in the wee hours of the morning.

Mom was strong. She did not scold me. She knew I was tensed. She looked tensed and that much I can tell. But she asked me to pick up our luggage and we walked out of the station. There was no one around. I only spotted few porters and some homeless here and there. I thought we were going to the ticket counter to check if we can find a seat for that night’s train. But mom walked past the counter. So, where were we going? Are we going back to my cousins house? Or are we going to just wait in the station till its dawn. I did not know.

But mom had a different idea. We took an auto, went to the nearby bus station and took a bus to Madras and reached safely. Apparently we caught the very last bus that was magically just waiting for us. Believe me! It was such a weird experience.

May be I should I shown the tickers to my mom before the trip? May be she should NOT have trusted me with the tickets? May be we should have both looked at our tickets before leaving my cousins house? Yeah!!! May be!!! But catching missing a late night train and getting into a random bus and reaching home was one hellava experience! Phew!